School sucks as usual...well...

not that much. since i've been gradually
able to blend with the others. which makes it so
frustrating. do you know the feeling that you would
like to be yourself but then if you are in your true
state that they will not trully like it? it's not
an assumption. i've tried to be me and to end up the facade.
one time i came to school with my moody and "doesn't care
about the world aura" and they reacted negatively. it is though
totally normal to react that way...argh! i can't explain it
but i know that you could get the picture right?

All of my classmates are all as i may say
"happy-go-lucky" and cheerful. and i'm not, most of the
time. I'd like to be able to find true friends
those that would accept you for who you are and would appreciate
the things that you'd do. I miss camiru and claire-sama, sharumain,amd rem...*sob

It's great to think that about 6 months from now
i'd be graduating from highschool *cheers!^^
I miss photoshoots... dramitically speaking, no one
in our class appreciates art to its depth. There is emma...
that's all haha!

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So today, I've totally surrendered myself
to just go with the flow...and talk about
nonsense just to be appreciated..blah blah blah
biats...

Oh good thing is i've talked one of my classmates
to have a photoshoot with me or as my model haha!^^